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alone

the promises you made and the vows.
all fell to the group in a flurry.
words easily spoken in times of ease,
till challenged in uncertainties.
like a pinning lover i waited,
waited for the shadows that flitted,
waited for the one who didn't show up.

still i waited.

slowly the hope faded,
the excitement ceased,
adrenaline ebbed away
the fog lifted,
my mind cleared,
sagging shoulders,
feet dragging,

alone.

without you.

alone.

as always.

alone.

hurt-bao2`

would i dare

thrusting deep wells in my tortured soul
it lies quietly within the folds of pain
creases of hurts and welts of torment
swells of emotions and walls of pretense
cowebs of the past overlining it
wrapping it in a tightly woven embrace
a blanket of warmth for the icy body
freezing cold yet unbearingly hot
something's wrong and i know it
the thumping heart courses through
the frayed nerves tied in knots
the rush of adrenaline rising up
the sickly cells quickly multiplied
they all screamed but i am deaf
i can't hear
they motioned to me but i am blind
i can't see
they gripped me in a choking hold
i can't feel
they forced my pursed lips apart
i can't speak
a hiss of air released from within
exposed and stripped of dignity
the truth is out and it dies off
the bright spark quenched
eaten by the numbing winter
with its tiny voice it whispers
the last breath consumed
would i dare?
would i dare?
revisit the fears
reopen that door
repent of sin
rewind the past
relive the mistakes
return to myself
would i dare to?
a question that needs no answer
buried in my heart was it
the monster that crouched in me
i am decaying and i am glad
a happiness born of satire
a joy birthed from sarcasm
perhaps i can hide
perhaps i'll be lost
perhaps i won't know
perhaps perhaps perhaps
empty promises that ring hollow
vow i make and them i broke
would i dare?
would i dare?
to admit that i need help
to confess my rooted fear
to liberate myself and cry
to turn away and start over
i'm scared
cos
i'm scared
i`m scared i still have to let go...
hurt-bao2`