Saturday, April 08, 2006

heart soul mind strength

lets talk about life , life isnt really all bright and gay everyday huh.
life is difficult.

if this life was a race there sure are many hurdles!
hurts. betrayal.sickness.death. setbacks.it seems so many things seem wrong with it!
it is filled with lots of situations which cause suffering.
theres two kinds of sufferings
1. natural disasters, accidents, calamities, tragedies of life.
2. suffering of the gospel
every christian suffers for the gospel, not that everyone has to be martyred
but everyday there are situations which come into your life which challenges you in your faith.
and everyday the world gives you a picture a situation which challenges us.
our values, concern and our believe in the word of God.

maybe family. where you`re the first christian. being persecuted . being stopped from going to church.
how about school or at work.dont dare to tell people you`re a christian? we have to live up to peoples expectation cos we are christians.
OH! christians cannot get angry its not right. christians cannot be upset. because we have to perform well for people to see that jesus lives inside us?!?
we will never be able to man. whoever can. no need jesus. which is quite insulting la.

Romans 8 :18 - I consider that the present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. (NIV)

lets give an analogy to help understand better. SURVIVOR! reality TV.
haha. how many of your friends have been caught in a deserted island situation with 40 other people. i mean have you seen that or heard about that in real life? haha besided the TV show "lost" la.anyway its kinda real if you think about it. they do all sorts of yucky stuff to survive and eat all sorts of awful stuff .struggle so hard and fighting it out with one another.
BUT at the end of it, you get a million dollars. ask all the winners and they will tell you of course its worth it! this fourty days of suffering will not be worth comparing with the glory !
amen

whatever situation you`re in now is not your final destination.
YOU ARE HEADING TOWARDS HEAVEN! where all the glory is.
so do not look upon your present circumstances and lose hope yet.

share personal experience,
i suffered from thinking about this before. thinking that life has passed me by.
sec3 always was my GLORY year.i was having fun in church singing and all.
in school i was good at soccer, had nice hair and had great classmates.
and i was so darn fit! compared to now.haha
completed a 72km run,canoee,cycle marathon thing with Boys brigade pals.
and i could do a hundred pushups and was getting like almost gold for pft.
but then i failed my examinations. and it was all downhill from here.
my friends didn`t stay close for long, i wanted to leave church and i suffered from depression. i ate and ate and didnt exercise till i was so fat and also i was falling sick more often.oh and also cos the girl i really liked was in that class. and i had to retake sec3 and meet new younger people and i would have spent 6 years in secondary school cos in normal academic stream.and i would forever be classified as a - retainee.
and i tell you condemnation kills. i felt that was the end of my life! everything i once had seemed to dissapear all at once on the results day. like those nice dreams that you wish your mom had let you stay asleep abit longer so you could enjoy it more. and anyway i felt my life had passed me by. that i had wasted my only opportunity of giving my mum some hope that i could do well despite dropping to normal stream. but i FAILED NORMAL STREAM?!?!?! my fitness dropped, some of my friends did too.but ahh how i missed the good old days. everytime i think back it would put a smile on my face again. HOW FOOLISH THIS WAS!

i can safely say to everyone , life can seem lousy but God is just too good .
remember that God himself died for you . and that alone is reason enough to fight on.
anyway in this mess he sent two brothers to pick me up , joshua heng loong and Ng zhen xian.
its a blessing to be their brother. haha. and they helped me to realise that the state i was in was just a step to glory. but i was sitting on the step. are you sitting on a step?
If you need help in realising where you are you can talk to me.
paul ho jun jie can msn me at cloudknight_ariel@hotmail.com or call me at 93381184.
or you can just talk to jesus lor. no number lah. but can close your eyes and say hi.
then continue on from there. haiya how many kids are still wandering about in Gm or even my church plmc. anything lets talk k!
i turned my eyes back to my destination. where my better days are still before me!
and i saw my dad`s face and ran to his embrace.
this race is darn tough! but i know its worth it. how worth it is i also cannot express.
but its heaven man. its heaven.