im so sorry.

the fear of risk , love , my future and my self has caused my eyes to become dim.
started to feel contented at where i was.
started to settle down and choose the easier choices ,
bluff myself that i was void of emotions towards new people or that i was over hurtful ones ,
stinking up my whole atmosphere with my self righteousness
i became a shade of grey.
i thought i knew it all
just because i knew more truth than others , just because i led a wonderful worship during camp , just because i said majestic powerful prayers ,
just because I was in the wonderful limelight ...
i thought that was all there was to it
thank God for reassuring brothers who never fail to inspire me .
i thought i didnt have to be a U.E.M in the spiritual world.
contented with just milk.i settled for less.
not daring to chew on meat fearing my teeth weren`t strong enough

i thought i could do it all on my own
i kept thinking this life`s battle was only my fight,
forgetting what it means to be in this together.
i forgot how to lean , forgot how to trust .i forgot my kawan, i forgot my nakama
i forgot my friends.
together we sail , together we sink , together we swim , together we face this storm.

next year is examplified by just one word - stretched
many potholes are ahead.
its going to be a year filled with great highs and of lows.
for post Os and As people
the next step is like walking into a dark room , trying to feel around with your hands .
tertiary education and army just too dark and high a hill to climb that you just wanna give up.
plmc people. the next generation next year will have a next change.
moving over to plmgss auditorium.new time . new location . new people.
a great influx of the girls from the school will cause leaders to be working harder , bgr problems ,
furthermore many leaders already leaving/left .
its going to be a tough time.though some will still crazily hold on

but cast of all your fears and anxieties. dont let the fiend have a grip on you any longer.
we come just as we are ,realising that today is only the first day of the rest of our lives ,
though with many tears we may pave the way,
we will never drown . though we may drink some salty water .
so just jump in , im glad we`re jumping in together.

daddy, next year,
show us what it means to really need you

selah
-lned